New blog..

Okay everyone! I have a new blog and I'm going to keep up with this one!
It's a book review blog!

Please go and follow! http://curledupwithbooks.blogspot.com

Thanks!

Sometimes it's hard...

I find it hard to be around my engaged friends. It's not that I'm not happy for them, because I really and truly am.

I'm just jealous because it should be me too.

I know that my time will come and it will happen when it's right, and it will be perfect. But I can't help but feel a little sadness around other people who are all so extremely happy...

Missing you/Long Distance quotes...

The thought of being with you tomorrow gives me the strength to go on today.

Missing you becomes easier every day because even though it’s one day farther from the last time I saw you, it’s one day closer to the next time I will.

Distance means so little when someone means so much.

Every minute feels like an hour, every hour feels like a day, and every day feels like forever. But I will wait forever and a day for you.

Distance between two hearts is not an obstacle, rather a great reminder of just how strong true love can be.

When you feel alone, look at the spaces between your fingers and know that that’s where mine fit perfectly.

When your far away, I miss you, but I know your here with me.

Jobs!!!

Can I just say I HATE job hunting? It seriously sucks.

Child life is a very difficult field to get into and I've been told many times that I would probably only get hired on as a supplemental/per diem in the beginning. That however, really sucks because there's only one hospital near me and they aren't hiring.

I just interviewed at a hospital in Richland that told me they had a part time position open. Well apparently they don't at the moment. They are hiring for a per diem as their full time person is on maternity leave. This person wants to go to part time but hasn't given the manager a definite decision. So if I got hired on as per diem i would be working full time until the other person came back. And if she did decide to go to part time, then I would automatically be a shoo in for the position. I guess the lady is supposed to decide by february and they are still doing interviews in February as well. It's going to be a little bit of a wait for me.

I just want to do my dream job!!! I know that I need to be patient because it's a difficult career field to get into. I also applied to full time jobs in Seattle and Tacoma but I haven't heard anything yet. I'm just so frustrated!

Will I...

I often think back into the past and wonder, "What was i thinking?" And now I wonder if in the future I'll be thinking the same exact thing about now...

I was often stupid in my days with men. I opened my heart up easily, trusting everyone. And for the most part I don't regret the relationships or the experiences I had with each individual. I think I learned something from every relationship. But then there are those ones that I still question what in the hell was I thinking!

With Marcus, I think I always knew we wouldn't work out. He wasn't emotionally available and he was still hung up on his ex fiancee although he rarely admitted it. He didn't treat me like I deserved to be treated. I have an extremely strong suspicion he cheated on me, but I've been able to move past him for the most part.

With Tommy everything was different. I felt loved, protected, and special. Everything he said or did showed how much he cared. He built me back up and put my heart back together. He saved me. Maybe we just got so comfortable with each other that we got into a rut. And then out of the blue, his ex fiancee starts talking to him and asking for help...and all of a sudden he became a completely different person. He wanted to start watching porn again. He went to a strip club even though he had said before he didn't care to experience that. And he became even more distant than before. I miss the man that I fell in love with. The man that showed me so much love and respect this past year than any man has ever showed me combined. Hell 6 months ago he wanted to propose to me. But now, everything's changed.

I don't want to be thinking about this situation weeks or months or even years from now wondering what I was thinking. Why did I trust again? But I love him so much, more than I've loved any other man so how can I just give up now? Is it worth the pain I'll probably go through later on? I just don't know anymore...what's the right thing to do? I wish I knew.

So for now, I start rebuilding those walls. Those walls that he so easily tore down. I'm not sure how I do it...I just have to...

First poem...

I lay alone in the dark

The pain

The heartache

It tears me apart

Knowing I'm not the only one

That you love her

You miss her

I come completely undone

YA Novel Reading Challenge...

YA Novel Reading Challenge

1/11/11 - 12/31/11 Click Here to sign up! Here are the rules: 1. Anyone can join. You don't need a blog to participate. Create a post about the challenge and link your challenge post up in the linky below. --Non-Bloggers: Post your list of books in the comment section of the wrap-up post. 2. There are four levels: --The Mini YA Reading Challenge – Read 12 Young Adult novels. --The "Fun Size" YA Reading Challenge – Read 20 Young Adult novels. --The Jumbo Size YA Reading Challenge – Read 40 Young Adult novels. --The Mega size YA Reading Challenge – Read 50+ Young Adult novels. 3. Audio, eBooks, paper, re-reads all count. 4. No need to list your books in advance. You may select books as you go. Even if you list them now, you can change the list if needed. 5. The Challenge starts on January 1, 2011 and goes until December 31, 2011.

I'm going to go for the Mini size level for now.

My List:

1. Annexed by Sharon Dogar

2. The Short Second Life of Bree Tanner by Stephanie Meyer

3. The Chosen One by Carol Lynch Williams

4. If I stay by Gayle Forman

5. A Break with Charity by Ann Rinaldi

6. The Hunger Games by Suzanne Collins

7. Breathless by Lurlene McDaniel

8. Clockwork Angel by Cassandra Clare

9. Skinned by Robin Wasserman

10. Shiver by Maggie Stiefvater

11. Between Shades of Gray by Ruta Sepetys

12. Meridian by Amber Kizer