It still lingers...

Every once in awhile Marcus pops into my mind. It still hurts. I know it takes time. I just wish it hadn't ended the way it did.

I should have known it would end. The whole time we were together he didn't show complete interest in me. He had his sweet moments and I believed him when he said I love you. It really was so confusing, it baffles me. Before he left he said he wanted to move in together when he got back. He promised me I would see him again. I promised him I would be waiting for him when he got back. I realize that we never would have worked and that everything happens for a reason. Marcus and I would not have been good together and I deserved much better.

I just wish that it would go away completely. My heart has almost healed; but every once in awhile the pain hits me.

Finally...Internet!!!!

I finally got internet! YAY! So now I can update this regularly.

Tommy got back from the first phase of his Survival training last weekend. He lost about 15 pounds. I could see his ribs. It was so good to have him back. He's leaving again soon for another week.

This entry is lame and boring. I apologize. Not to much going on.