Quote for today...

Sometimes you’ll kiss someone & know that’s the person you`re supposed to kiss for the rest of your life.

Ground zero...

I do not care what anyone says. It is not okay to build a mosque near ground zero. Now, I know many people's arguments are that it's a community center. I think that's BULLSHIT. It's just another excuse to cover up the real thing.

Why must it be built there? Can't they build it somewhere else? They could if they wanted to. But instead they feel the need to slap us in the face.

It is inappropriate and insensitive to the lives that were lost that day as well to all those men and women who are fighting to keep our country safe. People say that we need to be tolerant of their religion and beliefs. I say, "Hey, doesn't that go both ways?"

77% of Americans do not think building the mosque at Ground Zero is a good idea. And yet Obama is still endorsing it. Well no surprise there.

Stressed about life...

Life stresses me out.

I'm graduating after the summer quarter which will be in September. I have no idea what is going to happen. I have to resign my lease for my apartment because I need a place to stay over summer. However, if I don't get a job my parents are not going to continue to pay for rent. I also don't want a meaningless job. If I want to be a child life specialist I'm going to have to move somewhere else. Jobs in the field are scarce here, but are more available on the east coast.

This is where my problem comes in. What about Tommy? I don't want to leave him. I know he said he would help support me in any way he can. What should I do?

Not to mention I feel enormous pressure from my parents not only to move home but to get a job right away. Why do I have to graduate? Maybe I could put off graduating just a little bit longer....ha. We shall see I guess.

Good news...

I applied for an internship in the spring at the hospital. It's the child life internship and I have to do it in order to do that job. My advisor at the hospital for my field study said that my application was by far the best. She said she's going to try to be on the interview panel and she feels like I have a really good chance of getting it. I hope so. I want this with all my heart. I know that this job is perfect for me and I really hope this internship goes to me. Wish me luck!

I'm so excited just thinking about it! Except for the fact that it will be extremely stressful. It will be 9 to 5 type of job and then I will have to go to work in the evenings so I can afford to pay my bills. I don't know how I'm going to handle it.

Plus I have some strange things going on with my body. Awkward I know. My lymph nodes are swollen for no reason. I'm not sick, don't have any signs of having a cold or flu. They took blood and did an xray but both came back normal. So I have to go back on Friday if it's still there. And it definitely seems like it's going to still be there. It could be nothing at all but it could be something serious so I'm going to keep my eye on it.

It still lingers...

Every once in awhile Marcus pops into my mind. It still hurts. I know it takes time. I just wish it hadn't ended the way it did.

I should have known it would end. The whole time we were together he didn't show complete interest in me. He had his sweet moments and I believed him when he said I love you. It really was so confusing, it baffles me. Before he left he said he wanted to move in together when he got back. He promised me I would see him again. I promised him I would be waiting for him when he got back. I realize that we never would have worked and that everything happens for a reason. Marcus and I would not have been good together and I deserved much better.

I just wish that it would go away completely. My heart has almost healed; but every once in awhile the pain hits me.

Finally...Internet!!!!

I finally got internet! YAY! So now I can update this regularly.

Tommy got back from the first phase of his Survival training last weekend. He lost about 15 pounds. I could see his ribs. It was so good to have him back. He's leaving again soon for another week.

This entry is lame and boring. I apologize. Not to much going on.

Sick...

I am sickly this week. Another cold. I swear my immune system is the worst ever.

I'm seriously running on zero energy yet I somehow get up every day at 6:30, make it to the hospital for my field study, go to class, and work until ten at night. I can't wait for the weekend. I need a break desperately. Of course, It sucks being sick on the weekend. Now I can't do anything fun.

I'm jealous of people who are never sick.

I don't have time to be sick.

I really just want to be able to cuddle up with my man but alas...he is busy. He started Team last week so we barely talk. Hopefully we can see each other this weekend though. Fingers crossed!

2010 Reading Challenge...

I've started a new challenge for this year. The goal is to read 100 books or more this year. I will post all the books I've read on the sidebar of my blog. Below is the link and instructions about the challenge in case anyone wants to join.





1. The goal is to read 100 or more books. Anyone can join. You don't need a blog to participate.

--Non-Bloggers: Post your list of books in the comment section of the wrap-up post. To learn how to sign up without having a blog, click here.

2. Audio, Re-reads, eBooks, YA, Manga, Graphic Novels, Library books, Novellas, Young Reader, Nonfiction – as long as the book has an ISBN or equivalent or can be purchased as such, the book counts.

What doesn't count: Individual short stories or individual books in the Bible.

3. No need to list your books in advance. You may select books as you go. Even if you list them now, you can change the list if needed.

4. Crossovers from other reading challenges count.

5. Challenge begins January 1st thru December, 2010. Books started before the 1st do not count.

The Beginning...

I've started this blog because I feel as though there are so many feelings I need to express; but don't ever get the chance too. I lie in bed every night trying to work through the non-stop ramblings in my head.

I don't know if anyone will read this or even care about a word I write. But I figure it might be a little therapeutic for me. So I guess I should tell a little bit about myself. I'm a senior in college but not graduating until after summer (hopefully). I'm double majoring in Children's Studies and psychology; with an emphasis on Child Life. For those of you who don't know, a Child Life specialists works in hospitals with children who are undergoing traumatic hospital experiences (i.e. cancer, surgeries, etc). They are kind of like counselors.

I'm currently dating a man in the Air Force. We've been together about two months and I'm very optimistic about this relationship. For once, I feel loved and safe.

I'm also a proud member of Alpha Omicron Pi. I love my sisters!

I think that's all for now. Later!